Day 5 of no contact with my ex.

So today I had the opportunity to have numerous events that I allowed to impact me.  Weird event that could not be explained that seemed "out of this world"  So  By 8 pm I realized that I had yet to post and my girlfriend called me to check in with me. She asked how's it goin?  I said "fair to midland"  She told me that didn't compute with her.  Her idea of me is upbeat and jovial and joyous and for me to say "fair to midland" She pointed out that I had said that the last four days in a row.    I recognized that yes I had said that the last couple of days and then she told me the best thing I have heard.  I really needed to hear it also.  She told me that I may consider focusing on healing verses feeling.  I really do want to focus on that~  Not to avoid my feelings and to be aware of my HEALING.  This is the most important thing that I NEED to focus on.  I did not do a video blog today as I was not up to being on camera :)  I will resume by tomorrow.